Hello world, long time no see. If you didn’t already know; I have just started college. It’s a pretty big step going from secondary school to college but it is an even bigger step going from an all girls school to a very male dominated class in college. Most of you that read this are probably not from Ireland and are unfamiliar with the educational system here, so let me break it down for you.
-First, there is play school for a year at 3 or 4 years.
-Primary School for 8 years
-Secondary School for 6 years (usually)
-College for (generally) 4 years.
So you see, I have spent the last 6 years in a very lovely school full of girls where I’ve made some very good friends, had the greatest laughs and become quite comfortable in that environment. And now that’s all gone. Poof!
I’m not going to tell you what college I’m going to (because I’m paranoid like that) but I will tell you that I am studying Computer Science. And it is VERY DIFFICULT! But – I really like it. The people in this course are GENIUSES though. And they are very nerdy. Video Games seems to be very popular…. and surprisingly art too. Some of my friends ( Yes! I actually made friends!! Can you believe it?!) are particularly good. In fact here’s a link to one of their blogs where he posts drawings.
Take a look and comment or whatever. His drawings are just stripped back to their fundamental lines. It is a really cool style of drawing I think. And then looking at Farah’s work makes me want to lock all my pencils and journals away so no one can see how bad I am in comparison.
On another note, I really miss my friends from secondary school. We are all a bit spread out and it’s hard to meet up often. I am used to seeing them almost everyday. Now when I want to tell them my exciting news, or gush over the most amazing book or even just hug them because I’m not having a great day, they’re not there. And it’s really hard. I know I should be making lots of new friends and I like to think that I am but it feels to soon to be my “usual” odd self. It’s not that I’m not being myself I’m just holding back on saying everything that pops into my head.
Also; awkward silences. They happen a lot to me. I wouldn’t consider myself shy but I’m not much of a talker. It’s grand if the other person talks a lot or if we’re talking in a group but one to one I can sometimes say nothing. Yet in my head I can’t shut up at the same time. There could be nothing coming out of my mouth but in my mind I’m jabbering on. You probably think I’m crazy now. Maybe I am.
Marian! Starting a new school/uni is never easy, but hey – you've already made friends! And you are doubtless to make more. Have you looked at the clubs/societies your college runs? Maybe you can find people of similar interests to you.
I've just been to your friend's blog. His stuff is amazing! O.o
Anyway, good luck as term goes on and I hope you feel more settled soon xx
PS I feel you about the awkward silences. You feel like whatever you say will make you sound like an idiot … but actually the other person will feel much more comfortable if you talk! Not that it's easy. However after only a few minutes of conversation they will no doubt start to see the real you, and after that if what you say doesn't quite measure up to standards of "normal" and they look at you like you're a weirdo …. they're clearly not worth it! xx
Aww, thanks Emily! Your comment means a lot. ^_^ I've actually joined SO many societies but sadly have gone to none. I am definitely going to try to attend some though. Maybe Sci-fi or art.. They sound fun.
(I know – how does he do it? 😮 )
ah yes the awkward silences…. The bane of my existence. *sighs* I think my problem is I think too much. Overthinking leads to a lot of awkward silences because I'm just doing so much thinking and no talking. I think I need to stop thinking. There is just way too many "thinkings" in that sentence to be classified as normal :L
^_^ Thanks for your comment, it's so sweet!
Marian ^_^ x
Ooh art! Go for it! 😀
Ugh. I know. I guess the truth is, quite often the thing you're thinking/want to say is not as weird as you think it will be!
^_^ should be fun!
Hmm…sometimes it can be normal – ish. Well at least to me it seems normal. But then again it can be very strange. Very. 🙂